I'll Take The Tears Chapter 01

I dragged you down here. Once again I dragged you down to my lair. To this darkness that I cannot seem to fight. The darkness is always there, always. Yes with you it seemed like there is a light, far in the distance. Who am I kidding? You are my light, the only light I'll ever know.
But that doesn't matter now. I had dragged you down to my lair to be my bride. I made you change into the wedding gown I had purchased for you. I wanted to marry you! I even wanted to force you into marrying me!

When that fop showed up I knew I had to make you make a choose. It was either him or me!

Don't speak
Seal your lips.
Please don't say a word
Maybe I won't remember the words I have not heard
I see that you're in love
I know it's not with me.
But I don't want the truth to haunt my memory.

I see you looking at him. Looking in a way I've never seen you look at me, unless we were making music together. You turn to talk to me but I make sure you do not speak. I cannot…I will not hear the ugly truth you have to say to me. So, please, do not talk… Not yet…

I know you're in love. I can see the love shining from your eyes when you look at him. Raoul, that fop! That annoyingly handsome boy! Of course you would love him and not me. Who could love a monster?

It's never too late to relight the fire
It's never stopped burning for me.
The flame, it never died inside of me

I know we can still make this work! It is never to late to relight the fire. I can make you love me. If only you can give me a change. A change to make music together again. You loved the music we made together if only you give me a change to relight the fire, the fire you had for music. Only then will you love me again.

How is it now that I can tell you I love you
How is it only now that it's too late.
What can I do?
The love that we had is torn in two.
So you take the smiles from all of our years
I'll take the tears

But you didn't gave me the chance. You decided to speak your mind. Well, you let your actions talk for you. You gave me a kiss, a simple kiss. It was more affection anyone had bestowed on me. My mother denied me a kiss long ago yet you gave it freely.

Only after that kiss could I speak my real feelings for you. I knew I loved you all along. I just never said it out loud. I couldn't. Afraid you would reject me. Had I spoken those three words to you had you stayed with me?

I sit and reminisce of times that we once shared.
You gave me more than love
But never thought I cared.
My feelings were all for you.
Although it didn't show.
I only told you on the day you let me go

When you had left I sat down watching that music box monkey clap his hands together. I remember you gave me more than love when we held those music lessons. You gave me your soul, your mind, your love and your life. I should have told you the moment I knew that I loved you. I should have told you but I am a coward and there for did not.

I only told you when you left. I told you I loved you on the day you left, the day I let you walk out of my life.

It's never too late to relight the fire
It's never stopped burning for me.
The flame, it never died inside of me

It hurt to say those words, but I thought you would return to me. If only you knew of my real feelings. "Christine, I love you," I had said.

How is it only now that it's too late.
What can I do?
The love that we had is torn in two.
So you take the smiles from all of our years
I'll take the tears

It's kind of pathetic, is it not? To be able to tell you that I love you when it's too late? Too late to win you back, after all the horrible things I have done.

The love we shared was not for each other, it was for the music. You never loved me… Only the music we made together and great music it was too.

Now I realize that you're no longer mine.
But I'm hoping that the pain will ease in time.
Although you're leaving, I won't say goodbye.
Because I know you're here with me inside.

I see you and that boy leave and I realize you are no longer mine. Although my heart ache I'm still hoping the pain will ease with time. The pain of heart break. I have never experience it before and though it is foreign I hope to never experience it again.
But now you are leaving. I will not say goodbye because Christine, you are always with me. As long as I continue making music you will always be with me.

How is it now that I can tell you I love you
How is it only now that it's too late.
What can I do?
The love that we had is torn in two.
So you take the smiles from all of our years
I'll take the tears

There for I will tell you again, as you depart Raoul in the boat: I love you. And though it is too late I want you to go with the smiles and happiness that we shared in all our years together. I watched you grow up from a insecure child to a prima donna to a beautiful young woman. I want you to be happy and live a long and healthy live with your new husband. I want you to be happy with your children and your grand children. I want you to be happy and there for I want you to remember only our good times and I shall remember our bad time, our tears. For all I want is for you to be happy…

The End
7 July 2007