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Ashes in the Wind by Alvina

Rated: NC17

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Harry Potter defeated Voldemort after his fifth year. Being expelled from Hogswarts he flees to America where he meets the Cullens. Will he be able to start a new life or will his past catch up with him?

Categories : Fanfictions Twilight, Fanfictions Harry Potter

Character : Edward Cullen, Harry Potter

Pairings : Edward/Harry, Harry/Edward

Genre : Drama, Romance, Slash

Warnings : Explicit sexual content, Male/Male relationship(s)

Chapters : 21

Completed : Yes

Word count : 61.502

Read count: 89

Published: September 1, 2019

Updated: September 1, 2019

Ashes in the Wind Chapter 18

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Harry stared at his reflection in the mirror. Esme, Rosalie and Emmett were helping him get ready for his date with Edward, while Alice and Jasper were helping Edward. He was so nervous that he wasn't even able to button up his shirt, Rosalie had to do that for him.

"What if he doesn't like where we're going?" He asked for the fifth time that day.

"He will!" Rosalie comforted him. "Now stop worrying, it will be fine."

Harry nodded, but it didn't calm his nerves down. He wanted tonight to be perfect. He felt as if he needed to prove something to the vampire, prove that he could be normal. That's why he didn't go to the wizarding world for their first date. It was then that it hit him; this was his first date with Edward.

He sank down to the floor. "I can't do this," he said as he buried his head in his hands.

"Why not, dear one?" Esme asked as she sank down next to him.

"I don't know anything about dating," Harry told him. "I've only ever been with Cedric and he was the experienced one…in dating at least. I've been on a date with Cho before but that was a disaster." Pleading eyes begged with topaz ones. "What if my date with Edward will turn out to be a disaster?"

"Harrison, do you like Edward?" Esme asked him. When Harry nodded she continued. "Do you think Edward likes you?" A hesitated nod followed. "Then the date will be perfect."

At least, he was fairly certain the vampire liked him. It was hard to tell for the vampire showed no emotions. The boy had told him he wanted to know everything about him. What if he meant as a friend? If he meant to be just friends then he wouldn't have agreed to go on this date—would he? But what if he was trying to be nice as to not hurt his feelings? What if he was mistaking his feelings for something else?

"Harrison, stop it," Rosalie told him as she kneeled down in front of him. "Stop worrying and just go enjoy your date."

Harry gave her a weak smile and a nod. It was time. He stood up, checked his appearance in the mirror one more time and gave the three vampires a hug before he turned to his son. "You behave, you hear, little man?" he told C.J. before giving him a kiss on top of his head.

During his stay at the Cullens he'd been staying in Edward's room for it was the only one that wasn't occupied. But now he'd changed in Rosalie and Emmett's room while Edward had changed in his own.

He walked over to Edward's bedroom, took a deep breath and knocked on the door. He was grateful the vampires gave him this moment for himself. He knew they'd picked up his steps long before he knocked on the door. He bit back a gasp when the door opened.

Edward was wearing black dress slacks and a buttoned-up light blue shirt that Harrison was almost positive was silk. Beautiful, was the only word that came to his mind.

In Edward's room the vampires had heard the conversation Harrison had had with Esme and Rosalie. The nervousness had washed over Jasper and he had related this to Edward. Multiple times he'd wanted to rush into the room to comfort the wizard, but somehow he'd managed to control these urges. Especially when he'd heard Harry's thoughts. He was going to make sure that the wizard would know by the end of their date that he'd fallen in love with him.

"You look wonderful," Edward told him after taking in his appearance. Harrison was dressed similarly to himself, although he had a jacked that he was holding, something that a vampire would never need.

A blush graced Harrison's features. "You look beautiful, as well," he replied. "Shall we go?"

With a farewell and a ‘My little brother is growing up so fast' from Emmett, the couple left the house and took the Volvo to the concert hall.

"I thought it would be nice to go to a musical concert," Harry told Edward as they got out of the car.

Edward merely nodded. The beast inside him told him to be the dominate partner in this… relationship? His human mind knew that this was important to Harrison, however. He needed to do this and for that reason alone, he control the beast, at least for now.

"Hello, I'm Harrison Diggory I ordered two tickets," Harry told the man at the counter.

Great, two poofs, Edward heard the thought but decided to ignore it.

The clerk made to check the system. I'm not going to let those two fairies into the hall. "I'm sorry, there seems to be a problem," he told them kindly. "I have no one under that name."

O, no! Harrison's thoughts screamed at him. "C-could you c-check under Cullen?"

The clerk checked again and then shook his head. "Nothing, sorry," he pasted a sombre look on his face to give it some credit.

"Are there still two tickets left?"

"No, everything's sold out."

"Thank you," a crestfallen look appeared on Harry's face and Edward didn't have the heart to make sure the clerk let them in. For by doing so he'd have to reveal why they weren't allowed in and that would only break Harrison's heart.

"I'm sorry, I wanted our date to be perfect and now it's all ruined," Harry had turned to Edward. Dark thoughts were starting to take over but Edward quickly pulled him out of them.

"Harrison, why don't we see what else they have?" He looked around and noticed a restaurant. "How about a restaurant?"

Harry shook his head. "No, it would be awkward for me to eat while you watch." Harry looked around as well and noticed a museum. "How about the museum?"

Edward hastily agreed, not wanting some dimwit to ruin their date. Nothing could stop him from making this the most perfect date ever…


Edward and Harry left the museum, looking as if they'd seen a ghost, or at least Harry did. Edward just looked his normal self, while Harry was trying hard not to rip his eyes out and considering using Obliviate on himself. "That was…" Edward began but couldn't continue.

"Horrible!" Harry finished for him. "I can't believe they showed the photos so…graphically…"

"Yeah, they were rather…detailed."

"Merlin, I can't seem to do anything right on this date. First I forgot to order the tickets and then I take us to a war zone where you could actually see guts pooling out of someone's ears…" Harry shook his head, trying desperately to get rid of that picture. "I'm sorry I ruined our date."

"Don't say that," Edward stopped him and made him look at him. "Our date isn't over yet and nothing could ruin it. Not those rather graphic photos of a war or some idiot who wouldn't let us in." Edward bit his tongue realising what he had revealed. "What else had you planned for our date?"

"A walk in the park," Harry replied. He had figured the clerk didn't want to let two gay men inside the concert hall but to have it actually confirmed did sting a little.

"Shall we then?" Harry nodded and together they walked over to the park.

"You know, I've been thinking," Harry began, breaking the silence. "I've told you so much about my life yet you've not spoken much about yours. Why not tell me something more about you?"

"What do you wish to know?"

Harry took a moment to think of some questions before he asked the first one. "Do you like being a vampire?"

"Sometimes," the vampire confessed. "But most of the times I see myself as a monster."

They stopped at a bench, which overlooked a small lake, and sat down. "I don't think you are a monster," Harry told him. "I think you are a kind and generous person. Someone who cares more about the welfare of others than he cares about himself. Someone who keeps to his promises, even when something happens that could break them, he'd try anything to keep them. Someone who I'll entrust my son to and know nothing will have happened to him. Someone you could love uncontrollably and without fear…" Harry stopped knowing he started rambling. "There's no way you could be a monster."

Edward had stopped breathing, stopped moving, stopped acting human. His eyes fixed on the wizard. "If you knew what I've done you wouldn't think so…"

"Edward, don't think I'm naïve. I know you are a vampire and I'm guessing you've tasted human blood once or twice in your entire life and I know this means you've killed but that doesn't make you a monster. I've killed people; does that make me a monster?"

"No, of course not," Edward was quick to answer him. "But there's a difference."

Harry nodded. "You are right. First and foremost you are a predator who hunts to feed. You've killed because you need to feed, while I've killed because I could. If you want to point out a monster, point at me because not once have I felt guilty when I took Voldemort's life while you seek remorse for almost all your actions. I'm not saying you should go and kill humans; all I'm saying is that I understand why you had to. I don't condemn it but I understand. It still doesn't make you a monster, Edward."

Did Harrison really think like that? When he had told Bella he'd killed before she had said that she didn't care. What did that make her? Harrison told him he didn't like it but he's willing to overlook that fact.

Edward closed his eyes as he looked away and started acting human again. "How can you say that?"

"Because I know it to be true," Harry lifted his hand to caress the vampire's cheek and made him look at him. Their eyes met and as one they leaned closer.

The kiss was clumsy. Teeth scraping against each other, noses bumped, tongues almost choking each other. "I'm sorry," Harry said as he pulled away but Edward didn't let him pull away too far. He placed his lips against the wizard and left them there for a moment.

"Let's try this again," he said against the wizard's lips before sweeping his tongue over Harry's lips. The next kiss was slow, searching, exploring, perfect. The vampire pulled the wizard closer to deepen the kiss. A moan that emerged from the pit of his stomach escaped him when Harrison ran his fingers through his hair.

A moment later the kiss was broken, for the wizard needed to fill his lungs with air. Harry was breathing heavily as his eyes locked with the vampire. The normally topaz coloured eyes were now black and for a moment Harry thought the vampire needed to hunt but then he realised the colour change was because of something else. A flush spread across his cheeks and he was pulled in for another deep kiss.

Moments later the vampire broke the kiss when he noticed the wizard needed air. "Forgive me," he said. "I sometimes forget you need to breath."

"Never had a kiss before that could literally take away my breath," Harry joked and was rewarded with a chuckle. He rested his head on the vampire's shoulder as a comfortable silence fell over them. "I'm sorry our date was a disaster," Harry said after a few moments.

"I don't think it was a disaster, although I could have lived without the photographs from the museum," Edward replied, smiling. "I think our date was perfect."

"You do?" The question was soft, innocent.

"Yes, I got to spend the evening in your company."

A flush graced the wizard's face. "You're such a smooth talker sometimes." Harry joked. "But I'm glad."

Before Edward could reply he suddenly went stiff. "What is it?" Harry asked, concerned as he raised his head to look up at the vampire.

"Complications," Edward only answered.

Harry looked around trying desperately to find out what Edward was talking about but found nothing. That was until he looked over at their right and noticed the small group advancing on them. He recognised one of the women as Bella Swan, Edward's ex, and the boy she had been with when he and Esme had seen them when they'd gone shopping.

"Are they coming here?" A nod answered his question. "Do we have to leave?" Harry wasn't quite sure what the status was between them but he knew neither like the other.

"No, we are allowed to be here," Edward answered and turned his attention back to the wizard. He really didn't want to see his ex on the first date he had since he'd broken up with her. There was a time when her smell had been so overly sweet to him that he would have killed her on the spot but now it seemed unimaginable almost bitter. Though she still carried around that distinct smell that had called to him about a year ago, it was overwhelmed by the smell of dogs, not something he enjoyed. Especially not when he had that delightful earthly smell that was Harrison with him.

"It must be difficult to see her with someone else," Harry observed as his attention fell from the laughing couple to Edward.

"Not anymore," Edward admitted. "I believed I loved her and seeing her with that dog had hurt."

"I feel as if there's a ‘but' coming," Harry remarked, smiling.

"But, now I know that I never loved her. I was rather protective of her, that's for sure, but I think it was mostly her blood that called me to her. Her blood had been overwhelming sweet to me and I had a hard time controlling myself when we first met. When I overcame my desires to kill her I started to feel rather protective of her. I saved her life once and after that moment I couldn't stay away from her. I thought myself in love, that I'd finally found my mate…"

"I'm guessing she wasn't?" A nod confirmed his suspicions. "What made you realise she wasn't your mate?"

"You did," Edward replied as his eyes locked with the wizard's. "When I was with Bella, I wanted to protect her, mostly from myself and my family, for one wrong move could hurt her. While with you I need to worry about the world for neither I nor my family could ever hurt you. I'm not sure how to explain this but there's something about you that makes us all want to protect you, and C.J. of course"

"Hey, leech; did you lose your way?" Bella's group had caught up with them and stopped in front of them.

Edward's whole demeanour changed, he grit his teeth and went stiff. He recognised the boy with Bella as Jacob, then there were David, Jimmy and the last two were siblings, Leah and Seth Clearwater. Harry looked from the vampire to the boy who'd spoken.

"You should watch out who you hang out with," David told Harry when he had the wizard's attention. "You never know when they might decide to kill you."

"I'll keep that in mind," Harry replied, trying hard to be polite. It just wouldn't do if he hexed that boy into oblivion.

The group walked off but not before throwing some insults at the pair. "Couldn't keep his girl so he turned to boys," could be heard as well as. "Can't see what you saw in him Bella, not only is he a leech but a poof as well…"

Edward watched the group walk away. The looks Bella was throwing at him had him puzzled. He'd never been able to read her mind but had been able to guess it from time to time. Now, though, it was a total blank and it rather unnerved him. "Why does she keep looking at me like that?" he wondered out loud.

"I think she's realising what she has lost," Harrison told him, he had seen how Bella kept checking the vampire out and he couldn't blame her. Edward really looked amazing tonight. He hadn't worn anything special, just some black pants and a blue shirt but damn did he look good in them. "You're looking extremely handsome tonight," he told the vampire cheekily, a small smile pasted on his face.

"I'm not the only one," Edward replied.

Harry looked away from Edward. "You're right, that guy over there looks good too," he said, trying to hide his embarrassment.

Edward let loose a low growl as he advanced on Harry, trapping him between his body and the bench. "Careful, Harrison, I don't like sharing," he said before he crashed their lips together.

Harry moaned into the kiss. The possessive streak that Edward kept under control the entire time was finally emerging and Harry found that he liked being possessed by him. He had appreciated that Edward let him lead during their date, for he had needed that little control. He needed to prove to himself that he could do this; he could date someone new and not feel guilty or feel as if he was betraying Cedric.

"Neither do I," Harry told him when they broke the kiss. "If she even looks at you again I'll hex her."

"And I'll let you," Edward replied before claiming those luscious lips again for a short kiss. He couldn't get enough of kissing Harrison. He turned on the bench so Harrison was resting against him.

Through the trees they could see the stars. Harry sighed in contentment. "Cedric and I used to do this," he said after a few moments. "We'd sneak out of our dormitories and go to the Black Lake where we'd watch the stars…" he bit his lip. Why was he bringing Cedric up on their date? Their first date? "I'm sorry; you must hate it when I bring him up."

"There are times when I'm jealous of him, for he owns a part of you that I'll never have," Edward admitted. "But I also know that he's given you happiness at a time you needed it the most. I cannot hate him for that nor can I hate the fact you bring him up. I don't mind because when you do I feel you opening up to me, giving me another part of you that I will always cherish.'

"I know that part of you will always love Cedric and that there's a part of you I shall never have but I'm willing to compromise."

Harry gave him a weak smile. Why did he always have to open his mouth at the wrong times? "I guess everything that could have gone wrong on our date has gone wrong," he said. "Do you think that's a sign?" He was trying to joke but it didn't work. He was a little afraid that the universe was telling him he and Edward weren't meant to be together or that he was betraying Cedric or something.

"Yes," Edward answered him truthfully. Harrison's confused and slightly terrified look didn't go unnoticed by the vampire. "It's a sign that we are able to overcome anything sent in our path."